Today is Father's Day, and while I know it is a day to celebrate those I love that are Father's, this year it is very difficult. I lost my dad less then 2 months ago and I ache everyday. I miss him so much I can't even believe he isn't with us.
Since I live so far away I often think he is still with us and I go to call him and remember that he is no longer here. It makes me so sad.
At church this morning the pastor went on and on about Father's and I did all I could to hold back my tears. I try not to let my feelings ruin the day for the most amazing man in my life, Justin. Without him I just wouldn't be able to get through this. He is the best husband and father to our daughters then I could have ever asked for. I like to think that GOD knew he was going to take my dad from me WAY too EARLY and so he gave me Justin.
My dad and I had our ups and downs in our relationship, but as I became a Mother we became really close. He called me all the time and checked on me and the girls. I miss him so much! He was an amazing grandfather and the girls adored him. We all wear necklaces with his picture on it and they say "Papa". It breaks and melts my heart at the same time.
My dad was so funny. I try to remember all those funny memories that just make me laugh so hard. He always made everyone laugh....anyone he met. I miss his stupid jokes...I miss his laugh....I miss his pep talks.....I miss his smile.....I miss his phone calls....I miss his silly way with my girls....I miss everything about him and there isn't a day that goes by that I don't miss him.
Dad I miss you and wish you were still here for me to wish you a Happy Father's Day....life just isn't fair and I feel empty and saddened that you aren't here.
love you dad until we meet again.....Happy Father's Day!
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